If I Could Help One Person
This memoir spans sobriety, mental health, relationships, and reinvention. If you are new here, start with the theme that speaks to where you are right now โ or browse all 31 parts in order.
The drinking, the decision, and the first days of a different life.
Part One
The Beginning of a Sobriety Journey
Part Two
The Rise from the Ashes
Part Three
To Be Independent or Not to Be Independent
Part Nine
Burning Bridges That Light the Way
Part Ten
A Goodbye Letter to Alcohol
Part Twenty
What 30 Days Without Alcohol Actually Feels Like
Part Twenty-Two
When One of You Quits
Part Twenty-Three
California Sober
Diagnosis, medication, mania, and learning to live inside a brain that doesn't follow the rules.
Part Four
Mental Health and Substance Use Disorder. The Day I Lost Control
Part Seven
When the Anger Turned Inward
Part Eight
The Rise and Fall of Being Bipolar
Part Eleven
The Mirror
Part Fourteen
Either/Or: The Exhausting World of Black and White Thinking
Part Sixteen
You Are Not Your Diagnosis
Part Nineteen
The Beauty of Mania
Part Twenty-Four
The Smartest Person in the Room
Coercive control, trauma bonding, gaslighting, and the slow recognition of what was really happening.
Part Five
Sex and Sobriety: What No One Prepares You For
Part Six
The People Who Stay (And the Ones Who Don't)
Part Twelve
I Knew It Was Wrong. I Did It Anyway
Part Thirteen
Am I Loveable?
Part Fifteen
The Devil at Heart Center
Part Twenty-Eight
The Invisible Chain: What Trauma Bonding Does to You
Part Twenty-Nine
The Quiet Control and The Shame That Keeps You Silent
Part Thirty
When Surviving Looks Like Fighting Back
Part Thirty-One
When the Body Keeps the Score
Grief, self-worth, chosen family, and the long, nonlinear road back to yourself.
Who you are without the drink, the diagnosis, the relationship โ and who you are becoming.
The Full Archive
If you want to follow the story from the beginning โ the drinking, the diagnosis, the relationships, and the long road back โ start with Part One.
If You Need Support
National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233
SAMHSA National Helpline (substance use): 1-800-662-4357 ยท Both free, confidential, 24/7